This is the first one so I’m super exciteddddd. I’m not really sure of what exactly I’m going to be writing but that’s fine because I’m currently taking this life thing one day at a time. It might be because of commitment issues (married to the streets until my boo is ready to cuff me, niggas ain’t shit but mine is perfect). #hereforthechaos
I started with an outline & all of that extra stuff but I was like uhmmm ????? This isn’t me so random thoughts it is :)
It’s June 2nd and no pressure, but what happened to the goals you set at the beginning of the year? How’s that going? It’s time to do a six-months check in and it’s okay if you haven’t gone as far as you wanted. “As long as the sky is still positioned where it is and it’s not beneath us, be reassured that you’ve been given another chance to turn your life around and to live your life as beautifully as you choose to.”
You know when you think about certain behaviors you had in the past and you’re just like “who was that please?” Today’s episode of it’s the growth for me. One of my New Year’s resolutions or whatever the kiddies call it was “more letting people in, not everyone is out to get me”. Fatima before 2020 wouldn’t have ever considered writing about something personal because my boundaries were the literal definition of rigid and tbh idk how my friends still stayed with me. But now I’m like “this bad b energy can’t be for me alone, some people deserve some of this”. Imagine me writing all of this and not complimenting myself.
The “inner self” is the person you experience yourself to be in your private moments. Things that you feel whether you express them to anyone else or not. “If those who share your life don’t see you, you’re in danger of becoming invisible to yourself. If they don’t hear you, your desire to connect with others starts to battle with your desire to be true to yourself. If connection wins, you take from yourself the right to know what you know, feel what you feel, sense what you sense and want what you want.” Showing my inner self to other people is something that I’m still battling with. It’s still very hard for me but it’s something that I’m starting to enjoy. Osho said intimacy is letting the other see you as you see yourself. It is allowing the other to come into you, to allow the other to see you from your inside, to invite somebody to that deepest core of your being. Letting them into the deepest part of you because the root comes from “intimum” (your innermost core).
At this point in my life and every other point after this, intimacy for me, is a requirement in relationships that I cannot & will not compromise on, be it platonic or romantic. The thought of it is even exciting me. Say yes to intimacyyyy.My favorite from Chameleon Aura:
Let me undress your mind.See you emotionally naked. Let’s practice a different kind of intimacy.
MOOD ALL DAYYYYYY
“And if you can live in deep love, in deep friendship, in deep intimacy, with many people, you have lived rightly. If you are simple, loving, open, intimate, you create a paradise around you. If you are closed, constantly on the defensive, always worried that somebody may come to know your thoughts, your dreams, your perversions, you are living in hell.”
This life thing cannot be done alone and that’s the truth. You’re allowed to have your resting place and safe spaces in human form.
11/10 recommend having
The “I am” app for affirmation reminders.
The “Headspace” app for meditation & mindfulness.
Lastly, the “Prophetic Sayings” app for your daily adhkar reminders :)
I enjoyed reading this so much and I can’t wait for the next post! So excited🥰
I loveeee 😂😂😂. Thank you princess Fatima